alex- Yeah well last time you heard from me,I was trying to figure out what to do. Well I am still with him, he isn't cheating...but he does flirt. ALOT. But i mean he's a scorpio so am i i do the same thing. if we didnt flirt our names wouldnt be alex and anhtony i mean c'mon! besides, flirting isnt cheating and i understand why he does it...i mean some of his friends are hot i cant help it u no? lol. so anyways...amy should take it up from here...lol.

amy- well update. alex is no longer with anthony. she started dating a chick named maritza and i started dating a dude named lonnie. a couple days ago we both got dumped ...alex can tell you the whole story cuz im trying not to type to loud.. my moms asleep. anyways im still inlove with lonnie but he doesnt have any feelings for me.

Alex- It really does, you know. You ever get that feeling where half of you wants to believe that what everyone says about your boyfriend is true, but the other half is so in love with him it rejects the thought of him ever doing anything wrong? Yeah, that's me right now. I am so confused, it isn't even funny! I don't know what to do, I have seen the supposed other woman, I have heard the rumors, now all there's left to do is dump his sorry cheating ass...but I can't seem to get over this puppy love...

Amy- yea and it really sucks to have to wait for a person that is 100,000 miles away that you love. thats my situation. 2 more years baby!!!! but i can wait i guess. i truly love him and wanna be with him forever!

Alex- My mind likes to wander around alot. Sometimes I'll think about one thing, and five minutes later I'm thinking about someting COMPLETELY different. Yeah, that happened to me last night. I was thinking about how terrible life is for all those kids who have foster parents, or no parents at all. Like my ex-boyfriend. He watched his mom die in behind a dumpster because she overdosed. How terrible is that? I mean, whether he hated her or not, that's his mom, and I still feel bad he had to go through that. And then there's my boyrfriend Anthony. His dad died before he even got to meet him, and now he has an abusive Stepdad. What's worse, his mom just stands there and watches and doesn't do anything to stop it. He tells me that must mean she doesn't love him- but i think she does. She's just either scared of him hitting her, or leaving her. And people are so scared of being alone, they'll do almost anything to stay away from it. But really, if i remaried after I had a kid, I wouldn't let anyone discipline her/him. And if they did it without me knowing, I'd cuss them the fuck out, and then probably beat the hell out of them, wife/husband or not. My dad remaried when I was four. He brought home this thin, young, mexican lady. She was pretty, her name was Mickey. She was awesome at first, but then as she got more comfortable with three kids in her home, she began be a little abusive. I remember when I was 11 and she slaped me three times in my face for shaving my legs without saying anything. I was going to wear a cheerleader outfit for sports day at school, and I didn't want to be embarrased by hairy legs. I thought she wouldn't notice, but she did. And I got hurt for it.
Point is, when people grow up around something that they don't like, the chances are, they are going to try and stay as far away from it as possible when they get older. I don't like cheating on the person you're with, abuse, or violence because they're all something I experienced throughout life. I don't like drama, and I rarely fight with my boyfriend. That's the way I like it, simple, sweet, and fun. That's the way love should be, but people make it out to be more complicated than it as to be.

Amy- im sick of everyone saying barack shouldnt be president. yes, there are some reasons why he shouldnt like no having enough experince but i just think that people dont want him to be president because hes black. They dont want any change. And i think its freaking retarded. My mom says that people will most likely kill him beofre he got the chance to change anything and i think thats a bunch of BS. We had the worst president ever this year, for four years, and no one assasinated him because he was "normal". I dont think its normal to have every single president be white, male, and protestant. I want some change. I was originally rooting for hilary since she is a women and it wouldve been awesome to have a female president but since that didnt happen, im rooting for obama. I personally think Mcain spends all of his damn time talking trash on obama. So people STOP BEING RACIST. Peace&Love, effie.

Alex- She's flippin right you know. We divide ourselves in this world. First it was by race, then it was by color, then it was by gender, now it's coming to smart and stupid. You know i just don't understand this. Whoever you believe created the world- well that beinig obviously made us all the same on the inside, we all have the same body parts, we all have eyes, ears, a mouth, nose, lips, a brain...a heart. But we choose to ignore this because others are different tham us. I'm not racist, and I don't discrimate based on gender or religion. I don't care if you're a fucking African- American form Oklahoma that talks dirt and trash- If your a good friend, If i think you're a cool person, I'll be your best friend and if anyone disses you they better have aLOT of band-aids at home. It doesn't matter to me what people look like- trust me, i have alot of friends who are ugly and don't have boyfriends and probably wont for a while. But it isn't to talk about them like that. Because i love them all for exactly who they are. They are beautiful to me. Like Amy, she's beautiful on the inside and out, even if she doesn't see it. I love alot of people- it's too bad that judgment can be so cruel...

So. I haven't posted in a while. I guess that's just because I haven't seen Amy in a while either. Well, there is a lot going on. But I don't really know what to say. Life is still being life, people are still being people, hurt is still hurting, love is still loving, chaos is still chaotic, and I am still living, but not really alive...

Yours,
KOTF_ALONE

Yea i miss you Alex! you better come over today. anyways, im like moving and switching schools so me and alex havent seen eachother in like a week. Its still kinda same old thing with me. hating the world and such. Im not that depressed anymore. Well anyways my new topic is....dun dun dun dun... Pregnant Teenagers! i know everyones talking trash about them, calling them slut, whores, basically every name in the book. I'll admit i have thought that for some. But things happen, its just life. I think kids are gonna do what theyre gonna do no matter what. they have to make their own mistakes. i hate when parents try to "protect" kids from making those mistakes. But you know what if you were a good parent you should just let them. you should trust them not to do anything. But if they do, then you didnt teach them very well. But they have to live with it, they know the consequences of their actions. Anyway, i think the reason more teens are getting pregnant everyday is because most teens have older boyfriends. And most older men kind of put pressure on girls to have sex with them. And older guys are stupid because they dont use protection. Im still a virgin and the only reason i still am one is because im scared that i might get pregnant. And i dont want to ruin my life. Eventually i will have sex, maybe sooner than i think, but i will be responsible. As far as making fun of pregnant teens, why do people do it? Or look down at them for doing it? Its not your life, why should you care? And by the way, people say its wrong because they didnt get married first or whatever, well christians say that. well you know what most christians werent married before they had sex. well yea getting off topic. I look up to teen mothers. There brave and strong. Yes what they did was wrong but they cant go back in time so who cares? Well, Peace&Love.

PS- i wasnt talking about letting them have sex. its not like "hey mom im gonna go to this one dudes house and fuck him" .. "ok honey". No thats not what i was saying. What i meant was let your kids have some fun when theyre like 15. Dont be so strict and think they hanging out with alot of dudes because shes having sex with all of them. Just trust them. And if you dont, then obviously your not a very good parent. Your kids should know whats right and whats wrong. And if you keep your daughter from seeing their boyfriend or even hanging out with guys then she is going to rebel and fuck all of the guys. And teenage mothers are fucking brave. Yea theyre stupid for what they did. But they took responsibility for it. Which most parents today wouldnt of done at that age. So saying teenagemoms are stupid makes you fucking stupid. I bet you were having sex or atleast getting close at ages 14-17. Just because you didnt get pregnant doesnt make you any better than them.